So here we go...the truth comes out! I am sure I am not the only one who thinks this way. At the risk of falling off the proverbial pedestal some have put me on....I have decided to share what really goes on in my head as I homeschool our boys.
I chose to homeschool our children. I wanted to keep them with me safe and free from bullies. I wanted to educate them with Christian principles.
At the time I wasn't thinking how hard it would be to teach 4 different grades at one time. I never considered all the housework still needs to be done also. I must have thought I was superwoman!
I am not going to lie....homeschooling is HARD! There are days I want to put them on the bus and just go get a job. It seems like it would be so much easier to let someone else teach them.
The playing and giggling and constantly having to keep them on track is EXHAUSTING!
There are some days I wonder how we got done so early. Then other days I beg them to finish because they are taking too long. Sometimes I wonder if they even learned anything at all.
Sometimes we take the day off just because I have a headache and I'm not in the mood to do anything.
They guilt that follows all these thoughts is overwhelming and I think the devil really knows how to get me down. I really want to homeschool our boys but it's not easy. I know its the best thing for them but I don't always feel like the best teacher.
God reminds me why I homeschool and my husband also encourages me not to give up. I cannot say I won't ever put them in public school because I don't know the future but as of right now I do not want to go that route. My desire is to obey the Bible and "train up a child in the way he should go..." Prov. 22:6
So if you homeschool and you have had these same feelings or thoughts just know you are not alone. I think it's common for moms to get discouraged while homeschooling. Don't be fooled by the ones that seem to have it all together. We all struggle and it's normal.
~No one said it would be easy but IT'S WORTH IT!~