Twinkle Twinkle

Trouble Focusing

Well Jaron started kindergarten this year, for those who don't know. He loves school! He has been coming home lately with unfinished work and sometimes having to move his clip for behavoir problems. His teacher says he doesn't want to stay in his seat or on the rug at story time. He has to be "redirected" several times each day. So I am trying a new herbal remedy for him. I hope it works. I really don't believe in medicating children this young for ADD. He may or may not have it but for now he's too little for prescriptions. He's barely maintaining his 36 lbs. Not sure if he'll ever gain weight. :-(

Finally pictures!

I think I mentioned this in a previous post about Jaron's love of being tied up. In this picture Jaron wrapped the slinky around his neck and attached the other end to the door knob.

Bathtime....won't be very long and Jacob will be too big for baths with his brothers.

Jonah talking & listening to his brother..."kinda like water" when he puts his ear to my belly.

Pregnancy

I am so thankful God gave us our children. I feel like being a mother is definately what I was born to do. I do not think I am a perfect mother by any means. I know I could do a lot of things different or better.

Some people don't understand what a woman's body goes through during a pregnancy. It's not easy growing a person. Often times you might hear me say "my back hurts" or "I'm tired". I am not complaining. I do not regret getting pregnant. All my boys were planned pregnancies. It's just hard to keep smiling through all this discomfort.

I do not like asking for help. I do not like relying on others to do things for me. I am a very independent person and it's hard for me to sit down and rest when I should. So I push myself too far doing things around the house and then I am miserable later and useless to my children. So I have to pick the things that are most important like meals and bathtime.

As I get farther along and my body gets bigger it's hard for me to do much of anything. I have to use the handicapped wheelchairs at walmart to shop for groceries. My stomach hurts most of the time when I'm standing, as well as my back. That's just stating facts, not complaining. I am not physically able to do all that I wish I could.

My new bed is our recliner and I stay in it most of the day. Getting up only to use the bathroom and potty training Jonah. I get up to cook a quick meal and back to the recliner. I fold a load of clothes and back in the recliner.

And I struggle with guilt for not being able to do more with my boys. I think it's the devil trying to make me feel guilty. I just keep telling myself it's only for a short time. We are counting down the days until this baby arrives.

I don't mean to sound like I'm complaining if you hear me say how uncomfortable I am. There are those who aren't able to have children and I really feel bad for them.

Just don't ask me "how are you?" and I just need to learn to keep it to myself I guess.

It's All Good

I went back to the doctor today for my regular check up (going every 2 weeks now) and she said my weight is good ( not telling ). My blood pressure is good. I passed the glucose test. My belly is measuring good. His heartbeat was 139 bpm. My hemoglobin is perfect which she said is unusual for pregnant women. No worries. Now lets just see if I can get up on time to get my boys on the bus tomorrow. (we woke up 3 min before the bus today) Promise I will put pictures soon.

update

I went this morning without eating straight to the doctor for the 3 hour glucose test. They pricked my finger first and my sugar was 70 then I had to drink the sugar drink and they took my blood every hour for 3 hours after I drank it. It kinda made me feel sick though. I wasn't bored at all though. There were 4 other pregnant women in the waiting room so we talked the whole time and it made the time fly by. I don't know if I passed yet though. I go back tomorrow for a regular check up at 4:15pm and they will be able to give me the results. My legs do feel better having rested them today and trying not to squat down to pick up anything all day. Right now I need to get in the recliner. goodnight.

Glucose Test

Well I can't even remember if I put this on here or not but 2 weeks ago I took the glucose test they do for every pregnancy and I failed. This is my first time ever failing with any pregnancy. So I go back tomorrow morning at 8am for a 3 hour test where a drink a sugar drink and they draw blood every hour. I am kinda nervous and scared of what I find out. What will I do for 3 hours? I'll be STARVING! Right now my legs are KILLING me! I feel like I've been squatting 500 lbs. So this is going to be short and sweet. Please just say a prayer that I pass this test tomorrow.

Happy Birthday Jacob!

Eight years ago today, after 17 HOURS of labor which includes three hours of pushing I gave birth to our first born child, Jacob Adam 8lbs. at 3:17pm. I cannot believe how fast he's grown and how big he is now. It won't be long and he'll be bigger than me. He was born on my mother's birthday so we also celebrate with her usually every year.

Jacob is our sweet and sensitive child. He is very tender hearted and always wanting to do for others. He is a good nurturer for me when I don't feel good and also an awesome helper when I need him. Jacob we love you so much and we're very happy with the boy you've become. We pray that God will guide us to continue raising you for His honor and glory. Thank you Lord for allowing me to become a mother on this day 8 years ago.

One of those days...

Ok the pregnancy hormones are really getting to me. Or maybe it's just the weight of the baby straining my back and altering my mood. These days standing for any length of time is almost impossible. I am getting more and more braxton hicks contractions. For those of you who don't know what it feels like to be pregnant or can't understand. Have you ever had that burning in your stomach after doing a lot of situps? That is how it feels "BURNING" when I stand for longer than 10 minutes. My stomach stays in a hard tight ball the whole time but when I sit or lay down it relaxes and then the baby kicks around.

So anyway....babysitting too late at night trying to do homework, baths & dinner is not easy. Chris is so good about doing laundry, homework and anything else that needs to be done. I just want to do more and don't know how to relax. So I over did it today. On top of all that I am feeling like a bad mom. My boys don't always listen to me (shocker) and then I have to fuss and then I feel like a bad mother. It's vicious cycle and I wish I knew a better way to make them behave. I hate yelling and spanking. It makes me feel so bad when they come to me later with kisses and hugs saying "I love you". It hurts my feelings to know they can behave for their teacher at school and not get in trouble all day but when they come home they just ignore me. Just one of those days....I let the devil steal my joy.

FREE SWINGSET

Well I've mentioned a few times in previous posts that I would love to have a swingset for my boys and I posted something one time on Facebook about it too. Someone suggested I check out Freecycle. It's a website that people give away things to each other rather than trashing them or donating to goodwill. Soooo.....you know me I signed up right away and posted a WANTED ad saying I would love to have a swing set for my 3 boys.

Just a week or so later someone emailed me and said they had on in their backyard and her daughter had outgrown it. So my stepdad went and picked it up and brought it to our house!!! WOO HOO!!! Praise the Lord! It's not one of those fancy wooden ones but they LOVE IT! Chris set it up right out front so I can watch them out the window while I'm inside babysitting or nursing this new baby when he comes.

So we took them to the park this morning before it got too hot they played and rode their scooters on the trails through the woods then we got on the sidwalk that runs along the lake. We enjoyed the shade and the breeze in a swing before heading home. Not before they threw several rocks in the water though.

Talking to the baby...

Tonight I was sitting on the couch and Jacob was trying to feel the baby move. He told me open my mouth so I showed him my teeth and he said "no say AH" so I did and he got really close to me and YELLED "BOO BABY!" in my mouth. I laughed so hard! I told him he can't hear him through my mouth he needs to talk right into my belly. My boys are so silly...

Jonah loves to get in our bed and lay down pretending to be sleeping....

Sometimes daddy naps in the floor and Jonah LOVES his daddy!

90 day countdown until "Little J" arrives. I let the boys tear one off every night at bedtime.

Jaron loves to be tied up and he also LOVES this spiderman costume. He did this with their belts all by himself.

I went to the doctor today for another check up and also had to take the glucose test. If they don't call me tomorrow then, no news is good news. That's means I passed. My blood pressure is fine and my weight gain is fine and the "little J's" heartbeat was 156. He is growing good and now I have to start going every 2 weeks. The farther along you get the more they want to see you in the office.

We did finally decide on a name but we're going to try to keep it a secret until he's born. We've never done that with any of our other boys so we're trying to be different this time. It will be JAC for his initials. Boy is he kicking more and stronger. It's been hard trying to sleep in the bed so I think I'm going to start sleeping in the recliner as of tonight. But first I have to fold the three loads of laundry on my bed. Chris is great about washing clothes...I hardly never have to put any laundry in but then I can't keep up folding it. :-/ Guess I better get off this computer...don't get on facebook tonight....turn off the tv and get the dishwasher loaded and start on the clothes. GOOD NIGHT!