Friday, March 18, 2016

Weird Weather

 It got warm enough to take a walk to the park one day.

 We set up our trampoline too. The weather was beautiful for a few days. All the snow melted which made for a lot of mud.
 And then it snowed some more....

Thoughts of a Homeschooling Mom

So here we go...the truth comes out! I am sure I am not the only one who thinks this way. At the risk of falling off the proverbial pedestal some have put me on....I have decided to share what really goes on in my head as I homeschool our boys.

I chose to homeschool our children. I wanted to keep them with me safe and free from bullies. I wanted to educate them with Christian principles.

At the time I wasn't thinking how hard it would be to teach 4 different grades at one time. I never considered all the housework still needs to be done also. I must have thought I was superwoman!

I am not going to lie....homeschooling is HARD! There are days I want to put them on the bus and just go get a job. It seems like it would be so much easier to let someone else teach them.

The playing and giggling and constantly having to keep them on track is EXHAUSTING!

There are some days I wonder how we got done so early. Then other days I beg them to finish because they are taking too long. Sometimes I wonder if they even learned anything at all.

Sometimes we take the day off just because I have a headache and I'm not in the mood to do anything.

They guilt that follows all these thoughts is overwhelming and I think the devil really knows how to get me down. I really want to homeschool our boys but it's not easy. I know its the best thing for them but I don't always feel like the best teacher.

God reminds me why I homeschool and my husband also encourages me not to give up. I cannot say I won't ever put them in public school because I don't know the future but as of right now I do not want to go that route. My desire is to obey the Bible and "train up a child in the way he should go..." Prov. 22:6

So if you homeschool and you have had these same feelings or thoughts just know you are not alone. I think it's common for moms to get discouraged while homeschooling. Don't be fooled by the ones that seem to have it all together. We all struggle and it's normal.

~No one said it would be easy but IT'S WORTH IT!~

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Being Myself

Sometimes I get so tired of me
I wish I could be like others I see
I'm open & honest, too blunt they say
Filter my thoughts don't talk this way

I want to be meek, humble & quiet
So today I think, maybe I'll try it 
 I get around people and don't last long
The words just come out silly or wrong

Talking negative or sarcastically 
Fussing or complaining usually
Just As soon as the words are said
I beat myself up (in my head)

I am not perfect and don't claim to be
All I can do is just be me
Making mistakes will happen to us all
Up on the mountain and soon we'll fall

God knows my failures & my faults
He sees my mistakes & knows my thoughts
Yet he loves & forgives endlessly
His grace & mercy are sufficient for me.